Wednesday, 11 August 2010
Monday, 5 July 2010
I dressed up a bit to go out to the theater with my Dad on Friday night so thought I should take a photo. Ignore my face, my Dad is not great at taking photos! He seems to press the click button just as I am pulling some weird face :p
Anyways we had a lovely evening and I am so pleased with how my body looks in the photo. Can really see a difference between now and my last photo so I am really pleased :D
Tuesday, 23 March 2010
I still have 3 stone after that but it isn't looking so far away now. That will put me at 15st 9lbs which is 4 stone above what my "ideal" weight is. I've decided to get to 15 stone and re-evaluate and decide fromt here how much I want to loose. This is about me being happier so although being at 11 stone would be great 15 stone would make me overweight not obese!!! I can't wait to get out of the obese catagory, I really hate just being another fat statistic. Also my wii fit person will shrink. You have to get your prioreties right ladies :p
Just feeling so much calmer this week. I have just finished my last essay that needs to be in before Easter and am out on Friday with my lovely boyfriend. Just feels so nice to have some of the stress gone and I have decided I'm really not going to have another freak out over not loosing for a week. This is going to take me a long time to acheive, guess before I just didn't want to admit that.
I want to be at 15st 9lbs by Christmas this year at the latest, which to me is a sensible goal as it doesn't put loads of pressure on me but does give me a set goal to look forward to. I'd also like to do the race for life next year. I'm skipping this year, even if I was going to walk it because I just feel that it would be another great goal for me to aim for. Yet another goal is that me and my boyfriend are saving to go to Venice next year yaaaaaaay! I don't want to be overheating and huffing and puffing all over the place. He has heaps of energy and loves long walks so I want to be able to keep up and enjoy it not lag behind and make excuses. I think he is a bit part of why I am doing this. I hate that I'm not as energetic as him and I do feel I hold him back which is not a nice feeling.
So hear is to lots of good things to come and a slow but steady road to a smaller ass!
Monday, 15 March 2010
I am feeling so tierd recently and I am starting to feel like I just can't do the weight loss. I have a tone of uni work, no energy and I don't feel like people understand when I tell them how much of a hurdle this is for me.
It isn't just a matter of looseing weight, it's me loosing a tone of baggage I have carried around for the past 10 years. I try and explain to my boyfriend and I just get silence. He just can't understand and I don't expect him to but at the same time that doesn't help me.
I went to the Dr today and I have mild anaemia which partly explains why I have been feeling so tierd but it just makes it even harder to be motivated to do exercise and cook etc. Why cook myself a healthy meal when I can just sit there with a ready meal instead??!! I havn't done exercise for the past 2 weeks which has meant my loss hasn't been great but atleased I've lost something. This week I just ate and ate and so havn't lost at all.
No one else to blaim but me but I am so angry right now and I don't really know why, I don't think it's just the weight loss I think it's a number of things pileng up. I just know that I really don't want to go back to eating like I did and I can't seem to control myself enough to stop myself.
Wednesday, 17 February 2010
Ok so I thought I should have some full length photos to use as before and after photos!
The first one is from Christmas 2009 and the second is from this weekend. Couldn't believe what a difference it is already! Ok the photo of my and my boyfriend from Christmas is terrible (of both of us) but just look at how fat my arms are in that photo ickie!!!!!
I actually don't mind the most recent photo (where I'm in the blue jumper). I think I have defiantly made an improvement and it just helps to drive me with the weight loss :)
Wednesday, 3 February 2010
So far I have been confident in WW and found it fairly easy to stick to the plan. However I do have issues with eating all of my daily points. I'm allowed a massive 29 a day, partly due to my high start weight and partly due to being 5ft 10" tall. I try my hardest to hit my points allowence for the day as I have read over and over from other WW members that you need to in order to loose weight but it can be so so hard to tell yourself to eat more when you know your goal is to loose weight.
I try and top my points up with a fruit salad and yogurt but I can sometimes be up to 6 points away from my allowed number. I've decided not to worry about this too much as surly the point of WW is to show you how to regulate what you eat and take control of your eating habits? If I am hungry I will use my extra points but otherwise I won't worry, so long as I hit roughly 24 points most days I think I will manage healthy weight loss :)
At the moment I am finding it quite hard not to reach for comfort foods, I currently have a few minor health issues that I am waiting for results on and although it shouldn't be anything bad it's still in the back of my mind. It's also comming up to 10 years since my Mum passed away and I am finding myself starting to drift into daydreams about fish and chips from the chippie. Although I know I would be so upset after eating it at times like these it feels like nothing else will do. I think that this is something I need to talk over with my boyfriend so that he can help me work through the comfort eating. I really do believe my weight gain was due to huge amounts of comfort and bordome eating. I'm sure some would just say it's lack of self disipline but never mind :)
I'm currently doing pretty well with exercises too. I use the wii fit atleast 3 times a week, more if I can and am going to dig out the exercise bike my Dad got but has never used! I try and do a few exercises during quiet moments at work too, sounds silly but no one can see so it's ok! Just some muscle ones on my arms and thighs. This helps reduce the boredom for me as well because as soon as boredom sets in I just want to eat! Again I think this is soemthing I need to talk over with my boyfriend to try and explain to myself why boredom=the need to eat.
I think that's enough rambling for now! Weight in Monday so I have to resist too many popadoms on Saturday mmmmmmm